Thoughts on Social Media in Today’s World.

Millie:  Ugh…this life….I just want it to be simpler.

Me: Not with all this technology.

Millie: I don’t know if that’s helping or hurting.

Me:  It’s too much knowledge, that is actually hurting us.  Social media is the biggest disaster.

Millie: Yea, I agree with that.

Me: That’s why i cant do it with the IG and FB, I shouldn’t know about whats going on with people who add no value to me and no one should get free access to my life.  You earn that by being someone special or close to me.  Social media leaves you without a guard up, in turn, there is no value on building on a relationship because you don’t need to make the effort.  For example, my mother would be satisfied by seeing my pictures, knowing my status updates and would never feel the need to miss me or feel like she’s missing something.  Why would I give the ease of justifying her negligence?  Same thing with any relationship.

Millie:  I guess i never thought of it that way.  I was just thinking in terms of providing more opportunities for people to be sneaky assholes.

Me:  The problem i feel with today’s society is… there are no boundaries, no secrets and abundance of opportunities to get information you’re looking for without ever having to go to the source and that goes for anything.  Someone might be IN LOVE WITH YOU, look at your pics everyday, knows everything about you but you will never know because he doesn’t need to tell you,  He can just click here and click there.  Without this shit.. men cud be gentlemen, women would be mysterious and you wouldn’t know about the last 10 years of exes!

Millie:  You just made shit real.  lol

Me:  It’s sad but true, that’s why i choose to stay out of sight.

Me: That’s why in the past, such as, I could get a random text asking me how I was doing and have an hour-long conversation about what I am up to from someone i don’t see and has no idea what i have actually been up too who might tell me I am pretty because that’s how he or she remembers me not because of the images i forced on someone’s feed.

Millie:  i have zero argument for your points. lol

Me:  lol

Millie:  They’re all 100% spot on.

Me:  I think about this stuff a lot.

Millie: I’ve never considered that and i don’t think that many people ever have.

Me:  Lol.  No one thinks of that!!!  Because society wants you to believe that social media unites people but it only gives them more of reason to never go beyond mediocre to get what they want,   if something is easy, you’re not winning,  you’re cheating somewhere and there are always repercussions

Millie: You need to post this theory somewhere.

Me: My blog?  No one will listen, no one wants to believe that, everyone wants life to be just that simple.

Millie: I just think it needs to be out there, write it on a piece of paper and staple it to a telephone pole.  You know, to further make your point. lol

Millie: I think they’re such good points and I’ve never heard anyone speak about social media that way.

Me:  Really??

Millie: Yea.  Like I’ve heard reasons why its bad but never those reasons.

My Run-In with the Lord [Daily Prompt: In Good Faith]

Daily Prompt: In Good Faith.

I am not sure if this should be considered the first time I had experienced a true message from God but it was one that I remember and had a huge impact on my faith and life.

One Sunday morning in January of 2012, I attended church at the Brooklyn Tabernacle.  I had not been to the service in close to a year but my boyfriend and I were going through a difficult time and we decided to attend.  I had been praying and searching for answers leading up to that morning, concerning my relationship and what I should do because it was becoming unhealthy.  I was torn.

We sat arm in arm in the balcony section and the service began.  The chorus was praising God, singing, rejoicing and it felt nice to be in the presence of religion and spirituality.  Towards the final hour of the service, the Pastor began to read a passage from the Bible and relate it to our everyday lives.  Show us the messages imbedded in the text.

Pastor proceeded to speak of his interpretations of the passage when he pointed up at the balcony.  He preached and looked up high, “There is a woman sitting here today, a woman in the balcony and you have come today for some answers!  This situation you are, this relationship you are unsure of, you must let it go.  You have been praying and searching to do what is right and although you are helping someone else, you are hurting yourself and it has become unhealthy for you.  God knows this has been difficult but you have to leave this all behind you”, etc., etc.

The tears poured out of my eyes, ran down my face, I couldn’t even control it.  I though to myself, ‘He was talking to me’.  Even if he wasn’t, he was.  I hid my crying eyes and wet face in my boyfriend’s shoulder.  He knew what I had heard, he had heard it as well.  It was an obvious message.  I had been called out by God.  I cried for the remainder of the service.  I knew what eventually had to be done.  At that time, I wanted there to be an alternate way, an option that catered to what I wanted to happen not what was inevitable.  I think that was why I cried even more because I didn’t want to let go of this relationship that I struggled so hard to keep for 2+ years.  I wanted all my efforts and hard work to have paid off and I wanted my happy ending.

We went home that day, hardly had time to talk about it.  We either remained quiet or just spoke of a different subject.  He had to work an overnight shift so I was left alone with my thoughts.  I was in complete awe of what had happened.  How a message could be so clear and concise.  The next day, my boyfriend sat at the table and he started to cry.  He said the thought of losing me hurt him so much.  He explained that when he worked the overnight shift, he had to constantly go into a private room to cry from the thought that he couldn’t be with me anymore.  He told me that he knew that I heard the same message and he knew that God was being clear to both him and I.  He just didn’t want to face it.  He didn’t want to listen.    He spoke for hours about how it made him feel and then the conversation ended.  He never asked me how I felt.  He never asked me how I interpreted it or what was to be.  Maybe he was afraid, maybe he didn’t care.

Another painful, struggling 9 months would pass that year and everyday I would be reminded of what I heard by how unhappy I was and how much harder the days had become.  And then I had my moment, where I listened to what I was told and I ended that relationship.  If was difficult but it wasn’t hard.  He understood.  He knew it was time.  He knew that the message we had heard had been written in the stars and it was just a matter of time.  The clouds dissipated and the sun came shining through again.  I was better for it.

For almost 3 years of my life, I was conflicted and tried to fix a life that wasn’t my own at the expense of mentally and physically hurting myself.  I did all I could do for him but it was time to focus on my health and my well-being.  It was time to listen to God.  I took that leap in good faith,  reaped the reward and I am better for it.