Thoughts on Social Media in Today’s World.

Millie:  Ugh…this life….I just want it to be simpler.

Me: Not with all this technology.

Millie: I don’t know if that’s helping or hurting.

Me:  It’s too much knowledge, that is actually hurting us.  Social media is the biggest disaster.

Millie: Yea, I agree with that.

Me: That’s why i cant do it with the IG and FB, I shouldn’t know about whats going on with people who add no value to me and no one should get free access to my life.  You earn that by being someone special or close to me.  Social media leaves you without a guard up, in turn, there is no value on building on a relationship because you don’t need to make the effort.  For example, my mother would be satisfied by seeing my pictures, knowing my status updates and would never feel the need to miss me or feel like she’s missing something.  Why would I give the ease of justifying her negligence?  Same thing with any relationship.

Millie:  I guess i never thought of it that way.  I was just thinking in terms of providing more opportunities for people to be sneaky assholes.

Me:  The problem i feel with today’s society is… there are no boundaries, no secrets and abundance of opportunities to get information you’re looking for without ever having to go to the source and that goes for anything.  Someone might be IN LOVE WITH YOU, look at your pics everyday, knows everything about you but you will never know because he doesn’t need to tell you,  He can just click here and click there.  Without this shit.. men cud be gentlemen, women would be mysterious and you wouldn’t know about the last 10 years of exes!

Millie:  You just made shit real.  lol

Me:  It’s sad but true, that’s why i choose to stay out of sight.

Me: That’s why in the past, such as, I could get a random text asking me how I was doing and have an hour-long conversation about what I am up to from someone i don’t see and has no idea what i have actually been up too who might tell me I am pretty because that’s how he or she remembers me not because of the images i forced on someone’s feed.

Millie:  i have zero argument for your points. lol

Me:  lol

Millie:  They’re all 100% spot on.

Me:  I think about this stuff a lot.

Millie: I’ve never considered that and i don’t think that many people ever have.

Me:  Lol.  No one thinks of that!!!  Because society wants you to believe that social media unites people but it only gives them more of reason to never go beyond mediocre to get what they want,   if something is easy, you’re not winning,  you’re cheating somewhere and there are always repercussions

Millie: You need to post this theory somewhere.

Me: My blog?  No one will listen, no one wants to believe that, everyone wants life to be just that simple.

Millie: I just think it needs to be out there, write it on a piece of paper and staple it to a telephone pole.  You know, to further make your point. lol

Millie: I think they’re such good points and I’ve never heard anyone speak about social media that way.

Me:  Really??

Millie: Yea.  Like I’ve heard reasons why its bad but never those reasons.


Letting Go

IMG_8323[1]It has been awhile since I blogged.  First, because of vacation and Thanksgiving and then I have been super swamped at work.

Last month was kind of rocky for me.  I was very anxious and I didn’t know how to handle how I was feeling but in the last few days, I managed to pick myself up again.  I started to remember what was important to me, well maybe not what’s important but rather what makes rational sense.

I have had all these fears about trust, betrayal, liars, failure, invasion, etc. and for what?  The fear only holds me back from moving on.  Trust is a big issue for me and it’s really something that I need to dismiss.  I can still be myself and be good to people and I shouldn’t have to worry or fear their betrayal because if they lie, cheat or damage the trust that is fine and do you know why?  The reason is at the end of the day, I will still have me. I will still be the person I was and the person I am.  Knowing that I did my best in whatever type of relationship I have whether it be friends, family or romance, I will know that I gave my best, I was honest and I didn’t hurt anyone.

The bottom line is that fear is a wasted emotion.  Rather than being an emotion it’s a thought that manifests into action by taking away action.  Fear has held me back for so many years in many aspects of my life and I am ready to let it go.  I am not going to worry or jeopardize my future because I am afraid of losing, missing, or getting hurt.

If you hurt me, the joke is on you.  Hurting me only shows pain in your reflection.  Lying to me, cheating me, that isn’t going to hurt me, it will hurt you because at the end, you will have lost the person who didn’t do those things to you and I will have the lost the person who did.  I think I win that battle.

I also realized that there are no mistakes.  There are only observers who judge us.  My so-called mistake may be a blessing that only I can see or only you can see.  Life still goes on.  Nothing in life is that detrimental (besides death related choices) that it can’t be fixed or handled or dealt with on a new path.  Just because you aren’t on the road you set out to travel on, doesn’t mean your destination isn’t where you are supposed to be.  Everything we do leading up to this moment hasn’t been made in vain.  If the oxygen is still running through our bodies and we wake up another day, whatever judgement that was passed on us yesterday has been released because we are still alive to do better.

I am not going to let anyone hurt me anymore.  I am not going to be defeated anymore. That doesn’t mean I am fighting the fight, it just means that I am not going entertain the observers.  I am going to do the best I can with what I have and love my final destination because it is my journey and I chose it myself whether it was consciously or not.

I [Daily Prompt: Fearful Symmetry]

Pick a letter, any letter. Now, write a story, poem, or post in which every line starts with that letter. Photographers, artists, poets: show us SYMMETRY.

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I went to yoga last night after work.  It was fantastic.  I felt so relaxed and didn’t think about anything but my breathing.  I really needed that.  It was tough mentally to get myself to the class but once I was there, I was so glad that I went.  It was tough because it was Hot Vinyasa so it feels like you are exercising in a sauna.  I sweat out all the toxins and even the negative feelings I have had lately.

I plan to go more often again.  It is definitely good for the body and mind.  I am very content today.

Open Arms

The moment you stop caring, the world opens its arms to you.

My brother and I used to play a game when we were kids.  Say everything opposite.  So, if we wanted the night-time to be longer and not have the night feel as though we had just hit the pillow and the alarm would ring for school; we would say before we went to sleep, “tonight is going to go by so fast, it’s not even going to feel like we even slept.”

We used to play against the grain.  We would convince ourselves that what we wanted was ever going to be granted so we had to want the opposite for all our real desires to come true.

At such a young age,  I had branded life and all my dreams with thoughts of them never coming true.  That’s the past.

I am changing my life.  Piece by piece, day by day.  I am moving forward.  I won’t let anyone treat me like second fiddle and I won’t come second to my goals.  I am making myself first priority and those who can’t keep up, must quit and I am determined to never look back.

Great News! [Daily Prompt: Celebrate Good Times]

You receive some wonderful, improbable, hoped-for good news. How do you celebrate?

Photographers, artists, poets: show us CELEBRATION.

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If I have good news about something I have waited for, I head home, dress to impress and head out.

First, I would most likely go to a tasty restaurant, order a rare steak and wash it down with some cold beer.  After dinner, I would strut my 6 inch heels into a bar with a dance floor and great music.  Drink and dance until the sun came up.

Go home, get in that passion and go to sleep.  Wake up the next day and go shopping!  Pamper myself with a hair and nail day and just smile. 🙂

All Eyes On Me [Daily Prompt: Naked with Black Socks]

Are you comfortable in front of people, or does the idea of public speaking make you want to hide in the bathroom? Why?  Photographers, artists, poets: show us PUBLIC.

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I always get nervous when I have to do something that I am not used to doing.  But I love the rush and most of all, I love the attention.  All eyes on me!

That could be a lot of pressure but bring it on.  I can handle it.

So I guess you could say I am comfortable in front of people because I feel like I was born to perform.  Plus, I never keep my mouth shut anyway and I don’t get embarrassed easily.

Small Note

I haven’t been blogging as much as usual lately.  I just didn’t really like the daily prompt topics and I wasn’t in the mood I guess.  It happens.

I have a terrible migraine today.  It actually started last night and sleep usually gets rid of it but not today.  Oh well.

I don’t feel like I have anything worth sharing at the moment.  I have or want anything to complain about so I am not going to.

I am hoping I build up enough motivation to write or even just read some poetry today.  I am feeling tired though.  We’ll see.

Thanks! [Daily Prompt: Thank You]

The internet is full of rants. Help tip the balance: today, simply be thankful for something (or someone).  Photographers, artists, poets: show us THANKS.

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I just want to thank all the readers who visit my blog and follow it.  I am thankful to share my experiences, my stories and my life with all of you.  I appreciate those who visit without being told, “read my blog”.  You all help me grow as a writer and keep me motivated.  Thank you.


Reflections [Daily Prompt: Regrets, I’ve Had a Few]

What’s your biggest regret? How would your life have been different if you’d made another decision?  Photographers, artists, poets: show us TURNING POINT.

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“Regrets, I’ve had a few but then again too few to mention.”Frank Sinatra

Regrets.  Regrets.  Regrets.  I never looked at my decisions as regrets about physical encounters and partying mishaps.  What I do regret are the choices I made within my mind to be the certain ways that I am.  It doesn’t come with birth.  You train yourself at a young age to be who you envision is the person you should be.

I wanted to be strong and prideful like my deceased grandfather, Louie.  I wanted to be unselfish about all that I could because my mother was so selfish.  I didn’t want to give the world a chance on trust because the person I trusted most betrayed me so I made myself believe that no one would ever love me or have good intentions concerning me.  I wanted to be powerful and invincible like my father.  I wanted to be as sexy as I possibly could because I saw the relevance it had on my grandmother, Fanny.  I wanted to be loving and nurturing because my Nonna was so neglected of love and I wanted to show her that there was someone out there who will love her and let her know about it.

I regret not taking the time to know myself because I was more concerning with imitating the strength of members of my family and rebelling against the traits like left scars on me.  I regret not giving myself a chance to be me without someone else’s reflection in the mirror.

I see why I don’t like what I see because it isn’t me.

John Lennon [Daily Prompt: Imagine All the People]

Imagine Cover Art

The next time you’re in a public place — a coffeehouse, a park, a store — observe the people around you. Pick a person, a couple, or a group, and imagine what their lives might be like.Photographers, artists, poets: show us IMAGINE.

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When  I read the title of this Daily Prompt, all I could think about was John Lennon singing those exact lines.

I always look at people on the bus or when we walked passed each other wonder what their lives are like, where they are going, what is happening to them but I can’t specifically pinpoint one person today.  I am at work and all the people here I am familiar with in one way or another so I can’t even attempt to imagine because I already have an idea.

I definitely always imagine what life is like on the inside of other people.  I wonder what their souls are like, if we are all similar at heart or if we all are beats of a different drums.

“Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people sharing all the world”

 – John Lennon