Write up a mid-year “State of My Year” post. Photographers, artists, poets: show us NOW.
Quite the prompt we have here this morning. More often now, I wake up in the morning wondering if the daily prompt will coincide with how I am feeling and I guess because of the law of attraction, it usually does.
Lately, I have not only been reflecting on the past few months of this year but also the past few years of my life. I know I have wasted so much time not doing anything with myself. Now, I see the nothing I did has attracted the nothing that I do today. Granted I am not doing as bad as I dramatize, surely but I am not in the path or the state I wish to have been in by now. I wasted all my years in school focusing on my relationships and the friends I couldn’t seem to make. I realize all that doesn’t mean anything in the long scheme of things because I see that I am left without the fulfillment that I desperately seek.
This year, seven months in, almost 8 already. What I have I done with it? I learned more about myself and I learned how to value myself just a tad bit more that I had before. I figured out what I actually like to do in my spare time, what my passions really are and what makes me feel comfortable. I realized that I want more out of life than a 9 to 5 in any company that wouldn’t even send flowers to my wake. I figured out that I don’t want to be Stagnant in Staten Island. I don’t want to be complacent.
So mid-year, I have a lot of ideas. There are many things that I want to do. I want to blog, I want to take photos, I have a few crafty ideas that I am really excited about and I want to continue to draw. I am looking towards the future. I want to land at my life’s destination by January 1, 2014. I predict by then my life will have chosen its path and will be on the road to fulfillment.
I can’t wait for the follow up post in January!